Sorry I've been so terrible at updating, life has been getting ahead of me lately.
I've made a few mini-revelations this week. Which I shall discuss, and I've been vaguely busy.
Has it really been since the 19th of May that I've truly updated? Shit, I'm pretty terrible at this whole journalling thing, and I'd really really like to get better, because I want to remember the things I'm doing in my life in the near future.
Anyways, cart before the horse.
Since the 19th of May, it has somehow become June, making the year nearly halfway over. I do not know how this happened or what I've been doing with my life, but somehow I have lived six months of 2010 without realising the date.
Week of the 19th of May - I worked every day until the 24th, which was Monday of the next week, so I don't think I did much of importance, really.
Week of the 24th - Aunt Sharon and Uncle Rusty came out from the US to stay Friday night. They came over on the Queen Mary II, which was fun to hear about. We went to Belgo Centraal for lunch, then shopped in Artbox for cute Japanese things, then went to Borough Market where we bought bread, cheese, and olives. After that we went to Tas Pide, this awesome Turkish restaurant next door to the Globe theatre, where we then saw Henry VIII. It was a very good, but long performance. We all came home, where we then ate our bread, cheese, and olives, and drank nice white wine. Then, we proceeded to sleep, and I left for work in the morning about an hour before Sharon and Rusty left to go meet their friends to go to Devon. It was really nice seeing them. I then worked every day until Monday.
Week of May 31st - Worked on Monday, went to the British Museum with Diogo on Tuesday and went to Belgo for lunch. I'm slightly addicted to that place, to be quite honest. Wednesday we moved things around. Thursday I worked. And today is Friday - we went to Malcolm's house for a barbeque and Joe's moving into the flat tomorrow. We've boxed up most of Diogo's parents stuff. It fills up almost a half of Joe's room, and a lot of it we've kept under the beds and everything. Supposedly the things shall be gone once Diogo's parents get here on the 19th. Still a long time for shit to exist in this amount of space. Oh well, I complain about this too frequently. Life's too short.
Anyways, onto real things, of which I have a few to talk about. Not that I'm going to ramble on for ages, because they're kind of common sense, but I basically have just realised that I need to live a lot more presently than I do, and that society has taught me to not live presently. I mean, seriously, I've been taught to live life like I'm not going to eventually die. And I am. I really and truly am going to die someday, could even be relatively soon. I'm having a quarter life crisis, but instead of trying to embrace and stay in my youth, I've hopefully made some more productive resolutions.
1. Helpx & not doing a real job.
HelpExchange is also known as Wwoofing, for those Aussies out there. Basically, it's working places in exchange for food and accomodation. Sustainable farms and yoga retreats seem to be the most popular things. I've always been taught that I should go strive for a real life job, with a salary and a pension and I've decided that that's a little bit of bull shit. No offense to those who work a 9 to 5 and are happy doing that, but I feel like life's way too short to do that. And, I don't think I'll ever be happy being stagnant in one place. I feel like people will think this argument is naive and whatnot, but I'm not saying that I'm just going to not work ever, I'm saying that I'm 1. not going to settle into a job I loathe (though if I need money, I will get any job, I mean, I like eating), and 2. going to find something that combines what I want to do with my free spiritedness. Maybe I'll be an English teacher and move every year or so. Maybe I'll just work in places that will pay me or wwoof/helpx on the side. I'm going to find a way to be as free as I want to be. Why waste life not living?
2. Rash decisions & the meaning of life.
I've had a few of my old friends act really surprised that I live with Diogo. I mean, we've been dating for a year and some change now, and I moved in with him almost exactly a year ago out of pragmatism. Then that changed quickly into because I truly like him. I'm not going to bullshit around anymore and play stupid societal games with people I legitimately like - I'm going to live with my boyfriend until either he or I don't want to anymore. I'm going to call and chat to my friends when I like (around their life schedule of course). I'm going to make time for people I like, and cut out people who are toxic or who I don't mesh with. It's not rocket science, but the way I was raised, I was never really shown that one can civilly cut someone out of your life or just friggin' call someone when you feel like it, because you might seem "clingy" or annoying or some other shit. People should be honest with eachother and honestly like one another. If someone I like doesn't want to hang out with me at some time I do, that's fine. They can just tell me. Whatever. I'm sick of games with people and having to overthink simple things.
Again, life's just too short to not get every moment you can with the people you enjoy.
Ah well, I'm going to try and blog daily now. I really want to remember the things I do with my life and be present. I figure this is as good a way as any.
I hope you all are well. :)